For some time I tried to tell people I cured my autism! And well, the worst part of it I did leave behind. I can communicate, I can look people in the eye, I can interact normally. In my early teenage years (soon after my amalgam fillings) I was pretty strongly "sedated".
But many people would claim I always had Asperger's Syndrome and just got better in coping with it over the years. And that might actually be true. The reason why I am bringing it up is because today I learned that Greta Thunberg has Asperger's. I didn't know that before. Reading about her and her description I just get reminded of myself. Apparently she also has selective mutism. Which is a ridiculous side-diagnosis that could just be put under Asperger's. But hell yes, that's me too. I don't talk when it's not necessary. I don't really care that much about social interaction, in fact I don't enjoy it much. I often find it a waste of time, chit chat and all of that. I like deep conversations about the topics I am interested in (mainly natural healing). Since I haven't quite found somebody like me, I mostly stay alone. I love researching for hours. I am the invisible girl as Great says about herself. BUT I am still trying to figure out the whole autism and asperger story and I strongly believe it can be "cured". Many Asperger people claim they don't need to be cured, they are just different but content with the way they are. Fair enough. But many of them suffer from depression, social anxiety and other health issues. Some people like Dave Asprey claim they cured their Aspergers with their diet and other health methods. Many autistic kids "awaken" when treated for gut imbalances and heavy metals. There definitely is a connection, so that makes me wonder about Asperger's. It doesn't make sense that nature produces anti-social humans. But then again, maybe at this time of humanity, it all makes perfect sense, and those extra-introspective human beings are the ones who will make a change. Like Greta. But still. Greta suffered from depression. She might likely have Pyroluria and copper toxicity (one theory for Asperger's). Which also fits that she is a vegan now (for the environment, but many Pyrolurics are drawn to vegetarian diets due to a lack of stomach acid. Copper rich vegetarian diet make Pyroluria actually worse though). Apart from the fact that veganism isn't saving the planet in my opinion, I am also not convinced anymore that is is healthy in the long run. We have an epidemic of Autism and Asperger's. What happened!? Increased toxicity, depleted soils leading to nutrient deficiencies? In any way, yes I probably still belong very much to the Asperger spectrum. I never got a diagnosis even though I tried when I was in my early twenties. I learned that it is harder for females to get diagnosed because we are so much better in coping and pretending and girls are naturally seen as more quiet. But I know that I have always felt different, that I always wondered about the rules of social interaction. That I never cared about my clothes and wear the same sweater every day. That I don't give care about chit chat. That noise and groups overwhelm me. That I rather focus on my special interests. I feel it might be time to fully accept my difference and embrace the qualities that come with it. Yes it is not always easy being so different, and yes I do get lonely. I want social interaction and I don't want it at the same time. I hate feeling frozen and unable to speak in certain situations. At the same time I find it massively interesting.
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