How does a depression feel? We've all been sad at times but if you've never been depressed, it might be hard to understand how it feels.
It basically is your own mind becoming your worst enemy. The voice in your head telling you 24/7 that you are worthless and better off dead. I guess depression has a lot of different flavors and nuances. The mind basically picks your lowest thoughts you might have and magnifies them; and in my case those were thoughts of being unworthy and utterly unlovable. Now in therapy you would try to find out where the thoughts came from (childhood is often the main root cause) and I believe therapy is a great tool! But I also believe that depression can stem from toxicity. You might have those thoughts but they don't have to affect you. Or you feel negative emotions (from the toxins) and your mind makes up a story to validate those emotions (this happened a lot to me). Vice versa though emotional trauma can also make your body hold onto toxins. Last year in summer I was in a deep bout of depression. The type where you curl up on the couch and then roll onto the floor because you think that suits your low state better. Suicidal thoughts. Crying. An absolute feeling of unworthiness that nothing could eradicate. BUT even though I was curled up on the floor crying my heart out and thinking these thoughts that I should just kill myself - there was this part of me that knew it wasn't real. I felt the intense emotions and despair, and my rational mind made up a story (about how the guy I was seeing at that time didn't love me) - but I knew it was just a story of my mind. What brought me out of it? Binders. I would confidently say that binders have been the most potent antidepressant for me. I took a shake of bentonite clay, psyllium husk powder and activated charcoal every morning and quickly felt way more stable mentally. I have been depression free for quite a while now. I still have set-backs but nothing major. I felt really low during a holiday week where I decided to stop binders. Not a good idea. I also worked on the mind-part by watching my thoughts, meditating etc but I know that a big chunk of mental stability comes from detoxifying the physical body. May it be heavy metals circulating in your gut, or parasites affecting the gut balance - your gut is your second brain. Every depressed person should have a look at their gut health.
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