Life continues to be good, thanks to Advanced TRS.
I feel waaay more stress resilient, my cheeks don't flush red and hot anymore at all (I still used to get some random flushes, mostly around midday). I am also feeling way more social, I enjoyed having a dinner with friends the other day, chatting along and feeling completely normal. The massive brain fog is gone! Also no racing thoughts, no overactive mind. I used to write down notes all the time because I had so many thoughts coming in all the time. I was like the nerdy little professor. Now my mind is calm. Playing the ukulele seems so much easier. I hadn't played in a while, and yesterday I picked it up and it flew much easier to play. Still on the negative side are that my sleep is not very restful and deep at the moment and I can't remember my dreams (I had dream memory before). I will experiment with some extra B6. Also the libido is still more on the lower side, definitely not like it used to be. But maybe that is also age related (gasp)? And maybe my overactive libido from back then hadn't been so healthy anyway but was more a sign of my body being in constant overdrive? I had a couple of days with LOTS of really smelly gas (eeeh) so I guess that was die-off (the bad boys release a lot of ammonia and other gas when they die, and I had that before when I did parasite slaying). I really feel I am responding well to the Advanced TRS because I did a lot of detox work already all those years before, and now the TRS is just cleaning up the brain, because it can cross the blood brain barrier. Well the brain is the most important part obviously, with the pineal and pituary gland. I am only on my second bottle of TRS now. So far I am very happy and I would recommend it to EVERYBODY!
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I still love it!
I realized I am so much calmer! In the past I used to overthink, worry and was full of fears. I also had a lot of rage and irritation. Social interaction used to drain me. All of it had gotten better over time but nowhere near as good as it is now with the TRS. I enjoy driving my car now, for long trips to the beach. I don't even rely on my navigation system anymore, I just cruise around. It sounds silly for somebody else, but it is big for me. I used to freak out driving to unknown places, or big cities. Way back I was afraid just to drive in general, because I was worried my hands would just randomly turn the wheel around and I would end up in the ditch. I am moving house at the moment and while in the past that would have freaked me out and made me a bit anxious, I am now really calm. I feel so much more happy. Yesterday I spent the whole day at the beach, and then afterwards I visited friends. In the past a whole day out would have drained me, and social interaction afterwards would have been a torture. Now I was just fine. I feel like I am fully waking up now. Yes I had improvements over the past years, due to dietary changes, some cleansing, detoxing but nothing as profound as with TRS. It must really bind to all the heavy metals and eliminate them. I do have a bit more Candida flares which I believe is part of it leaving the body. It is a bit like working with a homeopathic remedy - you heal from the inside out, and sometimes symptoms can get worse before they get better. This is TRUE healing. One month of Advanced TRS. Do I think it is working? Hell yeah!
I think this is one of the best heavy metal detoxing supplements I have tried! It is very very gentle. Yes you get side effects if you go too high with the dose too soon, but even then it was bearable for me (as I had done already lots of pre-work I suppose). I have a really good feeling taking it, and all the other positive reviews from others are amazing too. It removes all the toxins slowly but steadily, and by doing that also breaks up the biofilm and eliminates parasites. I got my second bottle (my first bottle is still one third full. One bottle is supposed to last 28 days with 5 sprays a day. I did most days 5 sprays but of course less in the first week), and I plan on taking it for life-time. Why that, you might ask? Because we are constantly exposed to toxins. I will probably not take the full dose every day but here and there some sprays for sure. It is said that after 6 months of the full dose most toxins are out of the body. Let's see. The first month gave me good hopes. The itchy scalp for example is almost completely gone! Yay! My mood is incredibly good. That alone is worth it! Interestingly, a couple of days ago I had for two days a very brief experience of depression/suicidal thoughts for maybe 2-3 hours, each of those days during the lunch time. It was so strange, my day started great, then around mid-day it plummeted and I was teary and suicidal thoughts crept up. Then around late afternoon it faded and I felt great again. Why is that so interesting? Because it shows to me that depression and suicidal depression have not much to do with what we actually think, but rather our physical body makes us think certain things, to make them fit to the stuff that is going in the body. It is hard to explain. But you cannot really be suicidal just for a few hours. For me that was a sign that some dark stuff aka toxins or whatever got moved (maybe break-down of biofilm?), or the adrenals crashed over mid-day. Another option was the different brand of buckwheat flour that I had used. This one says it can contain traces of gluten. My old one stated it was gluten-free. Now I know I am pretty sensitive to gluten, I cannot even have oats, and seem to react even to gluten-free oats (apparently there is a protein in oats that mimicks gluten and can make celiacs react). Whatever the reason was, I try to remember this when I am in this suicidal phase - it is not me, it will pass, and I just have to keep on doing what I am doing. Lots of water with lemon juice helps as well as more extra vitamin C, or a water enema. Depression is toxicity. So after the first two weeks with really super low energy (even worse than before), my energy came back around the 3 week mark. Still not super strong but at least I can go for hikes again without feeling absolutely drained and I also started going back to the gym. I also don't need 11 hours of sleep anymore. I felt tired all the time really. Now I am back to normal sleeping times so that's good.
My kidneys don't hurt anymore. Maybe the combination with Turpentine was just too much of a detox. I think I underestimated the harmless looking little bottle of TRS. It is POTENT. I drink lots of lemon water and my urine isn't super dark anymore. I stink though. My armpits smell like crazy :o I usually don't really smell much, but since starting TRS I hope nobody gets too close to me at the gym :D Mood is still pretty good. And tataa, my libido is definitely back :) I had worried a bit but since starting the TRS I already had 2 times waking up with the female equivalent of a wet dream. Loving it. Body temperature has also stabilized again and doesn't fluctuates anymore madly like it did when I started the TRS. I did a few day of only 2 sprays a day but will up again to 4-5 sprays now. No other exciting things yet to report but I have a feeling I will stay with TRS for a while now. So here we are again. What causes what. My life-long puzzle it seems.
So yesterday I had a massive headache in the late afternoon. (Mood is great btw! Like really really good. I also feel calm, fearless, centered. I kinda have a feeling it might be related to the TRS. Many people claim the first 2 weeks they feel shitty and fatigued, and then at week 3 they feel much better. I have also been back to the gym and feel way better energy-wise!). The headache started during an energy healing session so I thought it was related to that. We worked on releasing stuck emotions, and I was a bit dizzy afterwards and felt my head pounding. I went to the beach afterwards to ground myself. My mood was still great, I was only a bit tired and having this headache. I went to bed early, and had trouble falling asleep, and then I woke up in the middle of night drenched in sweat, and I had some intense fears and a little sleep paralysis. Actually classic detox symptoms for me. The next day my head was better, but the headache returned again during the day. And I also still feel sweaty somehow. (My armpits stink currently by the way, I believe that is from the TRS - detox galore! I am also almost always thirsty and my urine is darker than usual. Clearly need to up my water). So here we are. At first I thought, clearly something shifted during that energy work session, and maybe toxins got released. I took extra magnesium, vitamin C, charcoal capsules and did a water enema - still headache. I knew that my period was about to start soon, probably today or tomorrow. So now I am wondering if the headache is connected to the upcoming period as I used to have those in the past. In THAT case the culprit might be that I am eating grains and legumes again! When I am on raw vegan or paleo, my periods are smooth sailing, not a single discomfort, boom. I remember when I was eating a high starch diet, my period caused massive cramps. SO. 1) let's see if I get cramps when my period comes 2) is it the grains and legumes causing the issues? 3) is it detox (TRS/energy work) Of course I started all these things at the same time since my last period: I started TRS and I started eating grains and legumes again. It would be a bummer because I was happy to eat a more varied diet again. I only had buckwheat, chickpeas, lentils, and some quinoa. I must say though my hair doesn't look as shiny as it was before anymore... I reduced my animal protein intake, and maybe that was a mistake as the body needs lots of protein when detoxing. I just thought more carbs would give me more energy, and legumes are high protein. By the way, some people say they can tolerate more foods again on TRS! Like even gluten. Now I will never go back to eating gluten again but why should I not be able to tolerate buckwheat and chickpeas please? Is it the lectins (my genes say I would be better of with a lectin free diet)? Anyway, my mood is fantastic, and as I said I feel calm. Sometimes I need to remind myself how far I have come. I used to be extremely anxious and tense about so many things. Driving a car seemed impossible, I was so scared and when I was super toxic, I sometimes worried, my hands would just turn the wheel to the opposite lane (I later read the exact same thing from another mercury victim, and found that so interesting!). I used to be so worried, tense inside, stressed out. So yesterday I drove 2,5 hours to the energy work session and felt super chilled. Then I went to the beach and walked around felt so extremely confident and grateful and happy. I used to think all the time what other people think of me. Now I just feel confident, and I honestly don't care what other people think of me. Then I camped in my car over night and slept in this quiet spot in the middle of nowhere. And the next day I did a little road trip exploring new routes and villages on my way home. Now this might be because I am getting older, wiser, more mature blah blah, but to be honest I believe it is the TRS. I read similar comments from other users, how they felt calmer etc. Now I only need to find out the question above. Guess I have to wait another month till my next period, eating grains and legumes, to see if they really affect me. If I get two periods in a row with headaches and cramps, I will stop the grains and legumes, and if I then still have issues on the third month, it must be the TRS or whatever but I kinda doubt that. When I was 14, I developed eating disorders.
I remember sucking in my belly all the time or pressing it in a repetitive obsessive manner. I started eating my meals separate from my family. When they had roasted chicken and fries (which they had a lot), I would sit on a different table and eat dry bread. I starved myself until some of my classmates commented on how skinny I was during a school trip because they could see the bones in my rib cage. During that school trip I also had my first binge eating episode. Somebody had brought cake and I couldn't stop eating it. This continued for a long time afterwards. I would hunger and fast and then of course the binges would come. When I was 15 or 16 I saw a video in school about the mass animal industry and became a vegetarian. My family didn't understand it (my dad is a big meat and fish eater). I was a very unhealthy vegetarian though. I ate a lot of sweets (and back then didn't even know that gelatin is not vegetarian). The food in my family was generally not very healthy. Lots of bread, ready-to-go meals, take-away foods, fries, sweets. My mother would eat massive amounts of chocolates and other candy and always had a big stash in the house. My dad would mainly eat meat, fish (but not prepared in a healthy way) and salads, and drink alcohol. The older I got, the more the marriage of my parents fell apart. My mother sank into a deep depression and spent the days isolated at home, eating chocolate and watching television. My dad would work more and more long hours and when he came home he would hide in the cellar where he had set up his computer and lots of alcohol. So nobody really noticed how much I struggled myself (not only with eating disorders but mainly the effects of heavy metal toxicity which threw me into an almost autistic state), everybody was in their own world. And everybody was toxic themselves. So when I was eating, I was eating sugary cereals for breakfast, often followed by chocolate bars (yes, for breakfast. Yes, my mother bought them for me). I was just as addicted to sugar as my mother. When I came home from school, I would eat a ready-to-go meal that my mother had prepared (if I was lucky) and then chocolate. Massive amounts of chocolate. All while sitting on the couch watching the same television talk shows my mother was binge watching all day long. There were no conversations. At other times I remembered my grandparents (bless their hearts! They were more parents to me than my real parents) who lived next door would give me apples from the garden for school, and I just wouldn't eat them, I wouldn't eat anything before school, during school, and I was so hungry that I couldn't focus. Now some pages actually connect anorexic behavior with heavy metal toxicity. It makes sense, as the body is toxic and fasting is usually the answer to toxicity. Usually also your digestive system is so messed up that the body maybe instinctively doesn't want to eat. Anyway, I starved myself down, followed by phases of binging on sugary stuff. Then I fell unhappily in love and ate even more sweets and gained quite a few pounds. After high school I moved to another town and went to university. I had the big plan to finally start eating healthily. It is funny, when I was a kid and me and my family were in holidays in FRance and we would visit a market, I fantasized about how when I was grown up, I would go to the market and finally buy all the things I wanted: fruit and vegetables! It's ridiculous, how a small child instinctively is drawn to healthy foods. Anyway, I didn't know anything though how healthy nutrition looked, and I would soon fall back into unhealthy eating. The sugar addiction was strong. There were day when I would eat rice pudding for breakfast, chocolate for lunch and nothing for dinner. Then in my mid twenties I wanted to lose weight once again (I was never overweight but had a few pounds too many). I started eating a lot of fruit. Which made my super toxic body go into shock. I got real bad diarrhea. Detox. I didn't understand that back then though and instead googled all sort of food allergies and intolerances. In the end it was the start of my health journey. Step by step I changed my diet to a healthier one, learning more and more things. Eventually I stumbled upon veganism and then raw veganism and I tried both. I then found the 80/10/10 diet with lots of fruit and thought it was the perfect diet. I ate a 100 % raw vegan diet for 2,5 years. After those years I felt depleted, and I was. Sure those diets had more nutrition than my childhood diets but my body was starving for nutrients, and a low fat raw vegan diet was NOT the answer. Especially because I was restricting calories once more. I was eating around 1200 calories on a raw vegan low fat diet which consisted mainly of apples and zucchini noodles. My hair was dry and falling out, my muscles weak, I had zero libido, my teeth enamel had suffered a lot, and I broke the bone in my right little finger just by lightly falling onto it. I was in a bad shape. Starving yourself can be so addictive though. I knew I needed to eat more but it took a lot to finally do it. And I gained weight. A LOT of weight. After my re-feeding (which wasn't done in the proper way! Normally you slowly increase the calories so that the body adapts but I didn't know) I was at my heaviest ever weight and looked super puffy and swollen. Still I believed in the vegan diet, and low fat, and I was now more doing the starch solution way. I did not improve. I stayed puffy, short of breath (salt-free), and low in energy. Until I started eating animal products again. It was in IKEA from all places. There were free samples of smoked salmon on toast and I simply picked off the salmon pieces and ate them all. No, I inhaled them as quickly as possible! I continued eating fish a lot after that. I also experimented with pecorino cheeses although I had given up gluten and dairy in my mid twenties. Eggs would follow. And then. Meat. I didn't have meat for over 16 years at that point, and I inhaled the massive T-bone steak that even my partner at that time couldn't finish. I felt better, I lost weight, and continued like that. I did experiment with other diet styles of course, I did paleo a lot, and a more low carbish diet. As of today, I don't binge eat anymore. It is funny, I still had those binges from time to time, for example with nuts, when I just could not stop eating them, or a bag of crisp. But along my healing journey I had detoxed and also killed Candida and parasites quite a bit and the overeating got less and less. Some people never experience this but it is like you are seriously losing control over your body. Your hand automatically puts the food into your mouth, you don't even have time to think. But it had gotten better, and what really finished it off, was a meditation by Dr. Joe Dispenza. After doing that meditation ONE time, focusing only on the overeating, I stopped completely. These days I eat lots of veggies, some fruit, some gluten free grains (mainly buckwheat), I recently started eating chickpeas again and seem to do fine with them, lots of sweet potatoes, and some free range eggs, sardines and venison or organ meats here and there. I eat my plate and have no desire whatsoever to binge on unhealthy stuff afterwards. Eating disorders are a pain, and I feel for everybody dealing with it. Heal your gut, detox your body, work on trauma release, kill parasites! How does a depression feel? We've all been sad at times but if you've never been depressed, it might be hard to understand how it feels.
It basically is your own mind becoming your worst enemy. The voice in your head telling you 24/7 that you are worthless and better off dead. I guess depression has a lot of different flavors and nuances. The mind basically picks your lowest thoughts you might have and magnifies them; and in my case those were thoughts of being unworthy and utterly unlovable. Now in therapy you would try to find out where the thoughts came from (childhood is often the main root cause) and I believe therapy is a great tool! But I also believe that depression can stem from toxicity. You might have those thoughts but they don't have to affect you. Or you feel negative emotions (from the toxins) and your mind makes up a story to validate those emotions (this happened a lot to me). Vice versa though emotional trauma can also make your body hold onto toxins. Last year in summer I was in a deep bout of depression. The type where you curl up on the couch and then roll onto the floor because you think that suits your low state better. Suicidal thoughts. Crying. An absolute feeling of unworthiness that nothing could eradicate. BUT even though I was curled up on the floor crying my heart out and thinking these thoughts that I should just kill myself - there was this part of me that knew it wasn't real. I felt the intense emotions and despair, and my rational mind made up a story (about how the guy I was seeing at that time didn't love me) - but I knew it was just a story of my mind. What brought me out of it? Binders. I would confidently say that binders have been the most potent antidepressant for me. I took a shake of bentonite clay, psyllium husk powder and activated charcoal every morning and quickly felt way more stable mentally. I have been depression free for quite a while now. I still have set-backs but nothing major. I felt really low during a holiday week where I decided to stop binders. Not a good idea. I also worked on the mind-part by watching my thoughts, meditating etc but I know that a big chunk of mental stability comes from detoxifying the physical body. May it be heavy metals circulating in your gut, or parasites affecting the gut balance - your gut is your second brain. Every depressed person should have a look at their gut health. I am having a little kidney pain (left side). Guess I need to support those buggers better. My kidneys seem the weak spot and since the TRS gets eliminated via the kidneys, they are probably quite taxed at the moment. I probably should reduce the amount of TRS (and Turpentine) I am taking at the moment... I always jump in fully, I rather feel some effects than nothing, even though that is not always smart and slow and steady is so much better when it comes to detoxing. It's been only 2,5 weeks of TRS now and I quickly went up to the full dose of 5 sprays.
Need to get me some kidney and liver support again, dang. Apparently licorice is also good for the kidneys and that's one thing I have at home. I am still pretty low in energy so no real exercise. Did a lovely walk in the sunshine yesterday though to soak up the vitamin D. Uphill I was huffing and puffing (only walking, mind you). So yes, weakened kidneys. Suck your energy. |
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