I got a new toy in my collection: Well I got a couple of new toys aka supplements, but this is one I am excited about. And hopeful. I read many very good reviews about the Advanced TRS although I must admit I am skeptical as it is an affiliate program so people tell you anything of course. And I actually read a few ridiculous posts about it. Nevertheless, it is my first zeolite product I am trying and I have actually high hopes. It is supposed to chelate the heavy metals super gentle, and actually all kinds of toxins for that matter. I must admit, it sounds too good to be true. So I will keep you up to date here. Yesterday I took my first spray(s). Wasn't quite sure if the first spray was fully on, so took a second one. You are supposed to start with one spray and then slowly work your way up. If you are bedridden, start with even lower doses. As I feel quite stable, I took another spray this morning. Could be a coincidence but I was in a foul mood all morning. Anger and rage about incompetent colleagues, and childhood issues coming up about feeling unworthy blah blah. Quite interesting as I had felt quite stable and mentally happy over the past days and weeks really. So far no other reaction. I went for a run/walk after work in the sun to move my system and felt better. Though tired. Oh, that's another thing: I didn't really sleep that well last night but I had nights like that before. All in all, too early to conclude. One thing I have though at the moment, but that had started already a couple of days before the TRS: Some itchy hives around my neck like a necklace. It looked worse in real. It started on the left side of my neck, then went down to the middle line, and today it is on the right side. At first I thought it was a reaction to my necklace but I haven't been wearing it since then and the hive is still there. Plus, I had this kind of hive before (I think that was when I was taking Lugol's). I could only imagine it's toxins moving in my lymphatic system since that is where the lymphs are. Maybe from the Spirulina that I have taken daily now.
I was also planning on doing a parasite bombing tomorrow with turpentine but not sure, since I now only started with TRS and I really should not do too many things at once as I always do. It can make things worse and in the end I won't know what helped and what made things worse. Some of my other new toys are Taurine and Whole Foods Vitamin C for my Ceruloplasmin production. And copper and chlorophyll. I am careful about those though. I will get my blood and hair results soon so see how I am with copper and zinc. Currently only taking small doses of zinc. Since taking the Spirulina (high in copper) also my cravings for chocolate are completely gone so maybe I have already enough copper now in my system.
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Diet: Experimenting with fruit and overall more carbs again. Yes, even grains (gasp!). Starting with buckwheat for now. Boom, I am having more energy. I know, what a surprise (not). I got this sneaky little theory that low carb works best for men anyway, while women need more carbs (and fruit), or at least they do better on it. So many theories in my head, hehe. Do I go back high carb vegan now? NO. I try and go back to a diverse healthy diet (seems like the disordered eating is still having a hold on me, but looking on the internet, I don't seem to be the only one :D). Anyway, yesterday I went for a long hike in the sunshine and even did a bit of running in between. My last attempts of running were awful. I wasn't even eating super low carb but kinda low carbish with mainly some sweet potato as my source. (Maybe a real low carb aka ketogenic diet would be different energy-wise). So back on the bananas and I feel like a light switch has turned on again. Maybe that was the reason for my low libido as well. D'oh! I keep on making the same mistakes it seems. I wonder though if I should rather focus on starches than fruit sugar to keep blood sugar balanced. Experiment continues. The massive bloating slowly went down! So this could be due to: lauricidin suppositories, peppermint oil orally (suppositories in the making), cbd oil or diet changes (less vegetables, more fruit - you would expect the opposite though). Maybe it's a bit of all. Which leads me to the cbd oil. Not quite sure yet about the effects but it usually takes some time anyway (which is a bummer because I am always doing so many things at the same time so I never quite know what works and what not - keep on making the same mistakes). Was feeling more cheerful though lately. I am mainly the guinea pig because I want my grandmother to get on it for her severe arthritis pain. I am trying to learn more about the endocannabinoid system. I am one of those rare cases who never got high smoking weed. So there might be a genetic receptor thing going on. It could also be that it's shut down due to disease (toxins?). So with the cbd I am hoping to wake up my endocannabinoid system. Maybe it is similar to other psychedelic drugs like ayahuasca. My first ceremonies were pretty low key. It seems as if my body was so toxic that it takes a while to wake up those receptors. My last ceremonies anyway were beautiful with lots of visions so maybe I should try smoking weed sometime again ;) I am almost through my sample of the Mitosynergy copper. I am taking two extra strength in the morning with no notable side effects so I wonder if that is a good sign? Maybe I am not deficient in copper after all? But of course it has been just a couple of days. I would love to give it more time but it's quite a costly supplement, so I will have to reconsider that. So far it has changed nothing to the better though as far as I can see. Some people said it helped with cold hands for example. Nah, still ice cold. Well my thyroid is still sub optimal (no white moons on fingernails and I can see it's still a big enlarged. I continue my iodine intake). I found a private lab nearby that will test anything you want for pretty cheap so that will be my next step to test my zinc and copper levels, besides lots of other stuff. I know I am still zinc deficient as I am still showing signs (white spots on the nails, dandruff). For detox I make a yummy cilantro pesto the other day, now that we are having lots of organic cilantro. Been eating a bit daily. In my very toxic past this would have made me very sick but now I can handle it so that's a good sign. I mean, how much more do I need to detox? I am very very hopeful though for the Advanced TRS that should arrive soon. Again, expensive, but I read so many positive comments now about it. I will let you know! I am starting back on my morning ritual practise of affirmation, visualizing and gratitude. SO important. My meditations were a bit meh lately but I also didn't put that much effort into it. Maybe time to switch it up. I think that's it. :) Family Constellation Since that family constellation I am having lots of dreams with my mum, and nice ones. Where she is normal, healthy, cleaning out her house. I was cutting her hair in my dream last night and complimented her on how good it looked. 2 days after my session I had called her (it had been 3,5 months since my last call) and we chatted for an hour! She was in a good mood really and asked about my life. Seriously one of the best talks I had with her over the past years (decade?). Even though everything was pretty profane but it had been so different to our usual phone calls. Pyroluria Treatment I am still taking moderate doses of the zinc and P5P, especially since I started reading about the copper connection. I am still waiting for my copper supplement to arrive. Something makes me wonder if copper deficiency could actually be the cause of Pyroluria. And the body is eliminating the zinc to keep the ratio more normal. Same with the potassium/sodium ratio, when the body is salt wasting because the potassium levels are so low. It all comes down to nutritional balancing really, doesn't it. Potassium and copper rich diets are mainly plant based diets. I think that is where many vegans are right. But why go all the way vegan? Plant based with a bit of animal products seems the best diet. Anyway. Did I see improvements? I still have very little appetite, which might be because a) I kinda eat very low carb at the moment (I don't really know why) or b) because my zinc gets lower despite taking zinc supplements in high doses because that can actually deplete zinc. What? Yes, because apparently the zinc is used to produce more metallothionein. Metallothionein (MT) dysfunction might be a primary cause for autism. MT proteins are chains of amino acids in the brain, skin and GI tract. They are important for:
So once you start supplementing zinc in high doses, the MT function gets increased and eliminates the high copper levels in the body, but at the same time it is also taking zinc with it (since it is made of 7 atoms of zinc). So maybe a reason why many people supplement with zinc but cannot raise their levels substantially. And this is where I came across this lady: In her case, she took many months high doses of zinc but couldn't really raise her levels. Until she started taking copper. So maybe she lowered her copper levels with those high doses of zinc but to me it just shows that the balance is so important, and why I don't like taking single nutrients. The usual statement for Pyroluria is that it causes copper toxicity, and that zinc and B6 bring it down. But you can be copper toxic and deficient at the same time! Probably similar to the B6 (I had sky high levels of B6 in my blood which just shows that my body couldn't really use it). What is needed to use copper and make it bioavailable? Ceruloplasmin, which requires certain nutrients, and also: copper. This is where Mitosynergy comes into play who claim that they produced the world's first bioavailable copper. Now the lady above used a simple amino acid chelated copper. People in India drink out of copper vessels to improve their health. Apparently the soils are so depleted that many people actually are copper deficient! So you guessed what I did. I ordered the MItosynergy (a sample first because it is bloody expensive) but also after more research, I ordered a simple chelated copper supplement as well as liquid chlorophyll which seems to be the most natural route to get in copper. So maybe if you get enough copper, you don't get easily deficient in zinc because it helps your body absorbing it better. It basically all comes down to eating a whole food nutrient rich diet high in greens (high in copper and zinc), or organ meats (also high in copper and zinc). So far I didn't see many other improvements of my Pyroluria supplements. Some days my scalp is less itchy, but actually for a while my nail beds got pretty worse. So I seem to be still very deficient in zinc. Oregano Oil for Candida Cleanse Another thing I started is taking Oregano Oil again, to reduce the Candida (and whatever parasites I might have). Geez, the first days my Candida was not happy. I got a massive thrush and expelled a lot of stuff (sorry TMI?). I also got bloated like 9 months pregnant. But I know, this is from the die-off. Dying parasites produce a lot of air. Die, buggas, die!! I rub my belly with peppermint essential oil and that often helps a bit. It is day 4 or 5 now and I am still bloated but I will give it 60 days. I am taking the extra strength Zane Hellas oregano oil. I stopped taking the Saccaharomyces Boulardii after 2 days only because it made me feel more yeasty. But I guess that might have been just a cleansing reaction too. So for now I stick to my good old oregano oil because that is a good anti-everything (bacteria, yeast, viruses). I really need to up my probiotic game though. I used to eat sauerkraut regularly but stopped. It is so important to get probiotics in daily. I also make my own kombucha but it's not fermenting too well (maybe it had been too cold still). I let it sit for a month and it gets quite sour but it still tastes a bit sweet too. Maybe I should switch to kefir again, that worked better. Yesterday was the first day in quite a while that I felt mentally a bit better and motivated. (Candida btw is closely related to copper imbalance. Copper is antifungal. Did I mention I am looking forward to trying my copper supplements!?). Other than that I had taken a couple of days off the iodine and selenium but now I am back on thyroid support, with my Raw Thyroid supplement. I also want to go back to doing yoga. I feel the gym and the weight lifting might not be beneficial for balancing female/male hormones. I found a beautiful channel about PCOS the other day: Although it is quite hard sometimes for me to listen to her, I think she has an important message. I should cultivate more my feminine energies.
What diet is she promoting? Fruit, vegan, Dr. Morse style. A couple of months ago it dawned on me. My libido was gone.
Now this is a big deal for me. I always had a crazy big libido. Three times a day, yes please. It seemed to have been the only good thing about this messed up body at times. Now looking back there was probably even a messed up reason for this super high sex drive. Guess I lived in overdrive for a long time. It might be connected to methylation (it is said undermethylators have a high libido. From the rest of the symptoms for undermethylation I fit quite well too. So does a reduced libido now mean I am not an undermethlyator anymore? Or does it mean I exhausted my adrenals - probably the latter). When did it start? About 1,5 years ago my libido was still high I would say. Then I left for a 6 months journey travelling the world (and as much as not working and just travelling and seeing beaches etc sounds like super relaxing, it is actually quite a lot of stress you put on your body. Not too many healthy meals, many flights, time differences... for somebody like me who is prone to stressing out and anxiety, this was a big challenge. Glad I did it though!). During my travels I had already really low sex drive but I put that down to the stress. But then I came back and it kinda continued. Although the first weeks I was back it actually got sky high again. Maybe because I didn't have sex in so long and the first weeks I stayed with my good friend, with whom I had shared the bed for some time already. We got a real strong sexual connection, so at first all was good. But then it got less and less. We still had sex and I still enjoyed it very much, but I wasn't really horny in between. I could take it or leave it. Which might actually be a good thing! I hear guys saying it was such a relief for them when they entered their 50's and weren't ruled anymore by their dick. But I was only 36 and I must say I missed being randy. Is it an age thing? Lately as I have been exploring Pyroluria again etc I got the hope that it is just a massive zinc deficiency. I realised I have white spots on my nails again which is a big indicator zinc deficiency. I hadn't supplemented much zinc, and let's face I didn't eat much red meat. Stress massively depletes magnesium AND zinc, and while I always supplemented magnesium (which probably is a reason why my anxiety levels are so low these days), I had kinda neglected the zinc. So I started taking zinc and pretty quickly ramped it up to 50 mg. Oh dear, massive copper dumping came my way, with crazy headaches, sleep paralysis and nightmares and just an overall feeling of losing my marbles. Sweet. I backed down with the zinc and sloooowly started again. This has been a few weeks now. Libido still pretty much zero. Reaching an orgasm takes forever. I know, this is an issue for many women actually, and I believe that many people are heavily zinc deficient. Just looking at a bodybuilding online forum and see how many of those guys supplement with zinc and say it makes them better men! Stress depletes zinc, exercising like lifting heavy weights depletes zinc, infections deplete zinc - I came to the conclusion that everybody probably needs zinc and magnesium in their lives. Thanks to my love for sex I dove deep into research again, and via Zinc and Pyroluria I also came across Mitosynergy and how copper toxic people are also most likely deficient in copper. Actually some numbers say about 80 % of the population are deficient in copper (the bioavailable that is) because our soils are depleted, and really who is eating enough leafy green vegetables. Plus, if your liver and adrenals are tanked, your body has difficulties producing ceruloplasmin, the protein-carrier that makes copper bioavailable. So if your body cannot use the copper you are taking in, it stores it as toxic copper, and that causes a host of issues. Women are especially prone to copper toxicity due to higher estrogen levels. Add to that IUD (copper spirals for contraception), you have a recipe for disaster. Anxiety, paranoia, hormonal imbalances. So Mitosynergy claims to be the first bioavailable copper that goes directly into the cells. I looked it up and it sounds legit so - obviously - I ordered me a sample. It is bloody expensive (as with most things that work) but whatever it takes. So I am kinda grateful for losing my libido as it brought back my awareness to the imbalances in my body. Adrenals of course are a big part of the journey too. I think I massively tanked them because when I came back from my world travels I started the Iodine Protocol (more about that in a different post) which is really hard on the adrenals. That was also when I gained a ridiculous amount of belly fat, and had crazy energy crashes. It's all about balance. The puzzle continues. Oh, and don't get me started on how Maca has increased your libido like crazy, blah blah. Yeah. No. Didn't do it for me, which just shows how deep I seem to be in the shit, haha. I still take it regularly for supporting my adrenals though, plus many other adaptogens. |
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